26 april 2006

i dunno why suddenly i feel like blogging now...maybe just now i was changing my bedsheet and i started thinking abt the conversation between me and wan leng...and i also just read the tag of christine bax...and i started thinking once again...

yesterday nite talk on the phone till 5 am bax...den after tat hang up the phone cos wan leng parents wake up le...if nv hang up she will kanna scolded...but i was on the phone half way my mummie suddenly came into the room and we had a little conversation and i find it funny lor...

my mummie come in...cos she off my air con for me...which i dun understand why...den i suddenly sit up to on my fan...i think she also kanna shock bax...cos i was lying on my bed talking...den she say...wah haven sleep ar...so late le...i reply...haven cant sleep dunno why leh...den she continue...siao leh...this time still talking on the phone...faster go sleep lah tml need to wake up early to clean ur room...i was like okie...den i say...ai ya tml wake me up lor...den she left my room le...first time my mummie nv scold me for talking on the phone till so late...

this morning kanna wake up by the phone call cos my mummie nv go wake me up...my father lah...call at 11 am find my mummie...siao de leh...den dunno how to call her hp meh...wake me up cos my mummie not at home dunno where she go...den again the phone ring wake up again...saw my mummie...haha...den she say go change badsheet...den later you cook urself hor....i going out le...den i keep saying orh...haha...she disappear beari fast lor...cos i go toilet come out she missing le...

den i dun care her continue to sleep...haha...and i jus change my bedsheet...haven cook...cos lazy...i tink later den cook bax...if not i also dun have lunch...jus now think abt wat i say last night and i find tat i should be glad with the type of life i am having now...and i should be glad tat i had so many ppl around me tat care for me...

i told wan leng tat...all this while i think i had really take things for granted lor...and i really dunno how to appreciate the ppl around me and the things tat were given to me...i only noe how to tell ppl around me to appreciate the thing and ppl tat was given to them...and dun take thing for granted...i think tat i should really remind myself abt this but not them...cos alot of ppl care for me but i dunno how to appreciate...

i noe wan leng and christine had been worrying abt me...gals dun worry abt me...nothing will happen to me...maybe ur are the only 2 who noe wat i am feeling now but not the rest...cos i had been putting on a smile infront of everyone tat came across of my life...maybe this is me bax...only noe how to hide my feelings...but not show it...

christine really sorrie abt wat i had done yesterday...nv pay attention to wat you were talking all the way...promise tat this weekend you see me will be the same old jalaine you noe...cos i dun wan to be wat i am now...i wan to be wat i use to be...live only for today dun care abt tml...and play life to the fullest everyday...

i had been repeating this song ALONE for dunno 101 time le bax...i also dunno why i had been repeating it...since yesterday nite i play until i off my comp...and i continue to play since i on my comp this morning until now...maybe the song title jus describe wat i am now bax...i am jus alone...i really dun like to stay at home cos i am tired of this type of life le...everytime no one at home de...so i rather go out with frenes...this is wat my mummie they all dun understand cos whenever i was out and come home late they will say...wah go out again ar...go where so late den come back...den i will jus reply i go out lor...and they will remain silent le...if not they will say haix...everyday go out...den go same place got things to shop meh...

i really find it funny lor...cos i seldom talk to my mummie de...only qns and ans...sometimes i dun even ans her...den is like yesterday the bicycle conversation make me feel tat my mummie beari cute...i tink yeaterday is the first time i talk so much to her bax...cos i think i really beari long nv talk to her le...got one time even worst...i nv see her for a few days bax...cos i go out everyday...den i reach home she sleep le...she wake up go work i was sleeping...so nv see her...

maybe i shall learn how to appreciate every single one who come across my life bax...and treasure them...if not i think i will regret after they left me...i dunno wat the hell with me suddenly talk abt all this thing...suddenly have so much to blog...

nariko
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