31may 2006

today dunno wat happen to me...fucking fe up with everything...and beari stress...and irritated by wat i am trying to do...all becos of project...all becos of ETP...if i noe...i should jus give up on this stupid elective...and request for a transfer to TPD...

maybe i am jus to tired bax...and at the same time not feeling beari well also...jus keep on sneezing and sneezing...and jus fucking piss of...den alsp trying to come out with the picture for the ETP ppt...den no one is there giveing suggestion...i say i do...but at least give some suggestion...but dun give some stupid suggestion...like putting pictures of flowers...i really dunno how to do it...

cos wat i am doing are graffiti...how to put flowers...i really dunno how to do it...if you noe...show it to me some other time...can give more practical suggestion...ended up i also manage to finish the picture...even though it look simple and easy...but trust me its not...cos i need to trace out all the colours jus to not have any white background...i doubt anyone will understand wat i am trying to say...

nvm...next time come my house...i shall ask you to try...i do until beari piss off...cos i keep making a mistake when tracing out the colours...jus beari piss...i do more than an hour for tat picture...and i make a stupid mistake...i should put our groupname instead of the products name...den have to do it again...this time take me only 15 to 3o mins...cos i got the picture le...except the words...

sorrie to anyone who i curse you behind ur back today...cos someone send me an email...and it make me beari irritated...cos i was busy doing my picture...and this email really irritates me...later i shall go forward it...i think anyone will get annoyed even though you not busy...jus dunno why i am feeling this way...i am tired...but if i go sleep now...i doubt i will wake up tml jus to go class at 8...

but tml no matter wat...i must reach school at 8...cos need to complete the ppt slides...stupid no one is doing it except wan leng is doing it...so tml must go help her out...if not i think she will be beari stress...den the presentation is on thurs...den the slides haven finish yet...i also dunno how le...pray hard tat i really fall sick on thurs till i cannot go school...den dun need to do presentation on thurs...den can post pone...so tat got more time to prepare...

i really beari tired le...really cannot make it...i really dunno if i should jus go sleep and try my best to wake up tml...or should i jus stay up...and go school tml...and finish the ppt in 2 hrs...and sleep in the lecture after tat for 2 hrs...i really dunno how now...i shall let your see wat i did...and this shall be the coverpage for my powerpoint...when ur see the picture...tell me how to add flower in...cos i really dunno...

i also got a strange feeling on someone now...i jus find tat person weird...but in wat way i really dunno...i am jus feeling weird but i really dunno...must trust my intuition...cos beari accurate de...its jus so weird...dun like the feeling when thinking of it...its jus strange...

this is the one tat make me spent more than an hour doing it...even thought it looks simple...

this one is the correct one...cos i was stupid enough to put the group name as the product name...if tml anyone have any comments on wat i did...they shall go and create on their own...if not ask them to draw...and i sca and add colours to it...

nariko

12.22 am

29 may 2006

hey...shall post another photo entry here again...cos lazy to type but today i went out...haha...today i went out...with christine...we went to compass point...haha...go there slack in library de cafe...haha...shall post the photo now...dun wan to continue le...

alomost all the photo posted le...if anyone of ur wan...come ask from me...jus tag me...i will sent it to you...all these are from my bbq de...haha...going off to bed le...tired le...nitez...

nariko

12.48 am

28 may 2006

haix...i am bored...i have been sitting infront of my computer since 8 till now le...and i had nothing to do...not only tat...no one tat to me also...even though alot of ppl online...sian...but got something for you to help me...if you happen to read this...its simple...jus got to this link:

http://kevan.org/johari?name=huntin4u

yeah...faster help me k...haix...i am bored...anyone wan to save me...before i die of boredness...

nariko
1.13 am

27 may 2006

stay at home for the whole day...sian...actuaally wanted to go out de...cos someone ask me out...but yesterday walk whole day den leg tired...dun tink can go out and walk whole day le...cannot take it le...

yesterday nv go school again...haha...is 2 days nv go school le...thurs and fri...den at home beari sian...den actually my grandma ask me go wedding dinner with her de...but i turn down...cos i also dunno who is the one getting married...haha...i also wan to get married...

den abt 2 plus...after i come out from my bath...i call christine ask her wan go out mah...cos stay at home beari sian nothing to do...den also msg philip ask him free mah...cos i wanted to watch Over the Hedge...den he also wan to watch...but he is not free...nvm...meet christine abt 4 plus...go dhoby ghaut...

after tat...go buy movie ticket...den go eat cos haven eat lunch yet...eat le...go walk walk buy things...den go watch movie...haha...the movie is nice...beari cute...haha...anyone who read this entry...faster go watch,...you wont regret it...its so nice...and so cute...

den after tat finish movie le...go meet someone...den after tat...go eat Anderson ICE-CREAM...yummy...my favourite ice-cream...strawberries and cream...its so nice...wahaha...anyone wan to treat me ice-cream...haha...buy me Anderson ice cream...

den while eating my ice-cream...we walk down the whole stretch of Orchard Road...did nothing...talking...crapping...pinching each other all the way...wahaha...den we did something stupid...walk all the way to far east plaza le...den walk the basement only...den comeout of the building...den walk to mrt station...take train go home...haha...

in train...also did stupid things...tat christine keep gripping my hand...den her nails beari long...den leave marking on my hand...stupid lor...nvm...i take revenge...i beat her...haha...we everytime do stupid thing in public de...

den reach seng kang le...i walk home...haha...i regretted walking home...haha...cos beari far...cos my leg beari tired...haha...walk the whole days with my heels...cannot make it...haha...reach home only 10 plus nia...sian...nothing to do again...

den ended reach home talk online...den after tat talk on the phone with omar, wan leng and eugene...haha...first time talk to them...but not wan leng lah...cos we everytime talk on the phone...haha...den after tat talk until 2 plus...den i go sleep le...haha...first time can sleep so early when i talking on the phone...haha...

nariko
6.46 pm

24 may 2006

hum...here blogging again...nv blog for a few days le...nothing to blog...cos everyday go school and come home...jus sian...den go school laugh for the whole lesson...and nothing else...

today jus tell wan leng something...tell her dun try to believe someone...cos he may seem simple...but he also seem complicated at the same time...cos we also dunno tat person for a long time...and we dunno wat will he be thinking...maybe i was wrong to say tat...cos he dun seem complicated...i am the complicated one...gal try to forget wat i say...i dunno wat i am trying to say...haix...

in life...we may meet different type of ppl...but i can say tat...i nv met the wrong person before...maybe i am jus lucky bax...those ppl i met are kind souls...i had met with different type of person...but they are all nice ppl...they help me in life...i really appreciate everyone of them...i shouldnt be suspicious of anyone of them...

i shouldnt be thinking tat my frene are complicated...maybe all this while i am the complicated one...ur may seem to understand me alot...i may seem happy infront of all of ur...but deep inside of me am i really happy...i dunno...i may seem happy-go-lucky...is tat the real me...i am starting to suspect is this the real me or not...so i shouldnt think tat the ppl around me are complicated...and they have something on mind...all this while i am the complicated one...cos i dun even noe my true self...

haix...i dunno way i am saying all this...maybe i dun understand myself now...i dunno wat i wan...i jus dun like wat i am doing now...be it in school...be it in life...am i jus going the wrong path...i seem to geth further away from my dreams...is this wat i wan to do...i dunno...my dreams are getting further...i cant even see it now...jus dun feel like continue to do wat i am doing now...

in school...is tat the course i wan to study...will it bring me to somewhere...i noe it sure will bring me to somewhere...but am i happy...its seem to lead me into another path...which i really cant reach my dreams...maybe i should jus blame myself...cos i am the one who choose this path...i nv regretted it...cos its a choice by me...and not others...but i jus simply cant see wat lies in my future...i hate life...it jus simply dun go the way i wanted...life jus sux...

but there is something in my life i am happy abt...i have a great bunch of frenes...i really nv regretted knowing anyone of ur...we may not often meet...but i noe tat ur will be there for me no matter wat...cos once Shaun told me...dun anyhow trust ppl...but you sure can trust us this group of frenes...of cos i will trust ur...cos i already noe ur for a long time le...at times we may quarrel...but always remember tat we also shared wonderful moments together...i really appreciate all my frenes...and i nv regretted knowing all of ur...

haix...i dunno wat i am typing all this...maybe because of wat i say today...and i really regretted...cos i think of it jus now...i feel tat i shouldnt have said tat...cos i am jus being unfair to tat person...dun wan to continue le...

nariko
6.49 pm

21 may 2006

jus wake up not long ago...and decided to update before i went back to sleep again...i am dame tired...reach home at 5 this morning...cos i had a bbq last night....

yesterday wake up at 8 plus...den go prepare...wait for christine they all to come my house cos they need to help me bring things to east coast park...cos we having a bbq...meet up with christine, roy and marcus...cos they go with me first...as for shaun, alex and hong guan...they meet us there cos shaun went to take mc because of me...wahaha...i am so touched...

den reach there all slack...cos wan leng haven come...den dun have fire starter den cannot start fire...so sit there beari sian...at the same time also waiting for philip...ended up philip reach before wan leng...he pass me my birthday present and his bike den he went off le...cos he got something on...and he coming back later...den after tat cycle go find wan leng go take fire starter...cos the guys complain le...cos cannot bbq...den nothing to eat also...

den after tat...mrs k, valon and omar also came...the fruities were beari late...all reach at 7 plus...den all sit there talk...joke around...den did nothing...den after tat the fruities left beari quite early...before 10 go home le...all went home before i kanna sabo...shaun, alex and hong guan beari clever...wait till my fathr left den play...

cos my bag got flour...den i noe they wanted to play water...den i go take flour...den the 3 guys were snatching from me...den i bite hong guan...haha...who ask you wan to snatch...den stupid shaun tickle me...den i not scare...haha...ended up the whole pack of flour was snatch away by them...but tat homg guan stood infront of me...wanted to throw on me...but i manage to snatch...den he also kanna...nvm...its fun...stupid hong guan...dun throw flor into my eyes next time...den nvm...they play flour...i play water on them...and its ice water...i throw ice...splash ice water...and den they also take revenge...they pour the whole pail of ice water on me...and its fucking cold lor...den finsh with the ice water le...we went into the sea...they were splashing water at me again...even though its beari gross lah...cos flour mix with water...its disgusting lor...but overall all enjoy...haha...

den after tat...yan chang come and she buy a cake for me...thankx for the cake...but mrs k they all went home before i manage to cut the cake...den all went home and left the whole group of us...den all waiting for philip to come...den i tink wait till quite late den he come bax...after tat cycle to 7-11 to buy ice cream and drinks...cos no more drinks le...den go back...sit there...and i finish a tub of ice cream...

after tat cut the cake le...den we all gals go bath...and alex, roy and shaun were outside waiting for us...haha...den all crapping and talking while bathing...den after tat sit at the bbq pit there nothing to do...aftera tat christine and yan chang left for cycling...leaving me with the guys...sit there also nothing to do...cos all tired...

shaun and roy were tired...and the wan to go home...cos shaun working next day...den roy need to book in next day also...so thay go home...den hong guan and alex also went with them...leaving me and philip there...we got nothing to do there...sit there you see me i see you...haha...den after tat the two of us were playing stupid game...play scissors paper stone there...the lost one need to drink water...den at first...i keep on drinking...but ended he finish everything...we sit there sit until really nothing to do...den wait for them to come back...i dunno wat time they come back...i think its 4 plus...

clear up everything...den all go home...except yan chang and her frene...cos she need to return her bike in the morning...den me and chrstine take cab go home den philip cycle home...reach home beari tired le...now me aching all over...haha...i going back to sleep le...

anyway...thanks those who make it to my bbq...and thanks for all of ur present also...i really love it...especially the crawling tigger tat philip gave me...i had been searching for it for a long time le...and i nv mention it to anyone...and you actuallt gave it to me...thankx alot...

p.s: hey sorrie philip to make you go home so late...cos they went cycling with ur bike...really beari sorrie for it...cos you got something on the morning at 8...den i noe you beari tired...sorrie to create so much trouble to you...but anyway thanks for coming down and the present...i really love it...

nariko
1.53 pm

18 may 2006

today there wont be so much words in this entry...most of them will be photo...so frenes who were around tat day with me on my birthday...if you wan the photo...get it from me...

there are still alot of photo...but lazy to upload all...wahaha...hey...thankx guys...really enjoy meself...ur really surprise me...especially yvonne...sorrrie to make u travel all the way down...cos you need to rush down all the way from work...really sorrie to make all of ur travel down...when all of ur live so far...especially hwee peng...live boon lay come all the way to seng kang...hope tat you didnt lost ur way when coming...cos i noe my neighbourhood here beari messy...wahaha...thanks anyway...

nariko

11.53 pm

17 may 2006

how should i start with today...i really dunno how to type it out...but today is my bithday...so ppl who haven wish me happy birthday faster do it...cos its going to be over soon le...kidding de lah..haha...

morning as usual...late for school again...cos of my hp lah...vibration spoilt...sian...den wake up late...cos overslept...den reach school meet wan leng they all at locker...tata wan leng strange strange de...reach locker dun wan to open it...ask me to open it...i already find it weird le...i open le...guess wat...inside got a tigger...haha...den they dun wan to tell me who give de...i was guessing all the way...till lecture lor...wahaha...den they keep laughing at me...ended i noe tat it was from wan leng and her boyfriend...

p.s: hey thanks wan leng and edmund for tat tigger...i really love it...its really cute...but it take me quite some time to guess tat it was for ur...cos the clue is rather difficult...ended uo wan leng still tell me...haha...thankx alot...

after tat...laughing all the way in the lecture hall...whole 2 hrs was laughing all the way...like mad ppl...haha...den is like laughing all the way...wahaha...i really enjoy today...hey guys...thanks for today...really love ur all...

den after tat finish lesson at 4...rush home bath...prepare...cos meeting philip later mah...den i was really beari piss off waiting for him lor...den i was beari not in the mood le...wan me wait for more than an hour...wat the hell...ended up he and the FRUITIES had plan something for me...really beari touch...especially when yvonne appear...cos i really beari long nv see her le...sorrie yvonne tat i nv call you this sat...cos i scare tat you will be busy for ur work...den i dun wan to trouble you...cos you need to travel all the way down to east coast...

after tat the whole group appear...i was really beari shock by ur...really thankx ur for today...i really enjoy myself...after tat the whole group of us went to plaza de kfc...go there eat...talk...and cut cake and everything...after tat philip bought me a tub of ice cream...haha...thankx for ur ice cream...really beari nice...

den after tat i was cutting the cake den kanna sabo...my face got alot of cream lor...wan leng also kanna by me...she is the worst of all...i tink everyone get some of my cream bax...beari fun...but abit gross lah...cos beari oily...i was really happy today...thanks for coming...really appreciate all of ur....

hey...shuan...yan chang...christine...wan leng...hwee peng...alisa...catherine...edmund...philip...and edmund's de 2 frene...thanks for making my birthday such a wonderful one...i really enjoy myself alot...really thanks ur guys...

i will try to post up my photo as soon as possible....

nariko
11.59 pm

17 may 2006

i am here blogging late at night...cos i haven sleep yet...still doing my costing homework...wahaha...i am using the first hour of my 18 yrs old doing homework...surprise bax...first time do homework ever since i get into ite...haha...

nv go school yesterday...wahaha...den PETER QUAH actually call me...wahaha...why i nv go school leh...cos i cannot wake up lor...i slept until 1 pm lor...wahaha...he call me i kanna shock...cos this semester i eveyday go school leh...only nv go for one day jiu call me...haha...actually he asked me tml got go school mah...cos he need to collect the donation card from me...wahaha...

den afternnoon meet christine at 3 pm...and guess wat...as usual i was late...wahaha...den after tat go eat...study...do homework...but do half way give up...cos alot of entry dunno wan to post where...den after tat she go home with me...den go buy mcflurry...my favourite...but i nv eat...cos too full le...cannot eat anymore le...wahaha...if not i will sure eat de...but nvm i get to eat hershey sundae pie...wahaha...den after tat went bus stop with her before i can go home...

reach home slack...do nothng...den jus spent one day like tat...slacking...doing homework...i really cant believe myself tat i actually finish 3 costing qns...wahaha...feel proud of myself...nv go school also nothing to do...also need to do homework...i tink wan leng is the one suffering when i do homework bax...cos everything dunno...need to ask her...wahaha...

hey gals...thanks for ur birthday song...even though its not beari nice...wahaha...really touch by it...i will remember to cry de...haha......

i am still doing my homework now...wahaha...sian feel like sleeping le....but before tat...i want to wish myself HAPPY BIRTHDAY...wahaha...where got ppl wish themselves happy birthday de...haha...but anyway thankx mummie for bringing me to this world...if not i will not have today le...

nariko
12.48 am

15 may 2006

hey...sian...school is bored...life is bored...nothing to do everyday...wake up...go school...squeeze bus and lift everyday...den back home...haix...its really seem more like a routine everyday le...wahaha...jus part of my life...

as usual...lesson start at 8 but i wake up at 8...den reach school at 10 plus...go lecture...dunno wat the lecturer is talking all abt...jus sit there and talk all the way...and stare at the lecturer...really dunno wat the heck is she talking...nvm...lesson all the way till noon...den continue for another hour at 1...after tat break at 2 again...sian...wait for christine till 3 den go home...cos i nv go ETP...sian cos end at 5...wahaha...

after tat go compass point...actually wan to do my homework for costing de...but ended up sit there and eat again...den nv do...all the way chatting and eating...wahaha...den after tat go walk around...den shaun call me...den go find him...den walk home together...talk all the way again...den reach home le...sit at void deck and talk again...haha...talk until 7 plus...den accompany christine go wait for cab before going home...my life will be bored if i nv talk...wahaha...

reach home le...go bath all tat...den sit infront of the computer till now...den i haven do my homework yet...cos no mood...den also tired le....dun feel like doing le...i tink i going to sleep le...haha...cos i am simply jus tired...

wah...i dun like my time table now...even though i finish lesson at 12 on thursday and friday...sian lor...go school 4 hr den go home...wat the hell is tat...wahaha...no wonder my mummie everytime say go school study 2 hr den come back le...wat you studying huh...lol....

nariko
8.46 pm

13 may 2006

finally i am not staying at home today le..cos i go out today...wahaha...finally had some program on the weekend le...cos i had been staying at home on the past weekend...

today meet christine at 12.30pm at seng kang interchange...and guess wat...i am early...but she is late...wah...surprisingly tat i am early...wahaha...cos everytime i am late lor...den actually wan to go eat de...but alot of ppl...so we go jurong east den eat...cos we also going imm de giant to get things for next week de bbq...

reach there dunno wat time also...we go eat...den after tat go diaso...cos christine wan to buy things...den after tat go giant lor...wah...alot of ppl...sian...den starting to get wat we want to buy...den everything we found...except marshmallow...walk around for alot of time...still cannot find...den go ask..wahaha...told us at the snacks corner...but we walk alot of time le...still cannot find...den tat christine say walk until i noe wat it have here le...den suddenly we saw it...wahaha...still say dun have...

den buy everything le...going to pay...den the cashier beari slow lor...den the face also beari black lor...if not happy dun work lah...den still so slow...cos someone is helping her to pack...den also beari slow....last time i work as cashier beari fast i can clear the queue lor...and she is super slow lor...den i noe the aunty at the back beari bu shuang us...cos christine tell me...hey aunty dun bu shuang us lor...i noe we buy alot of things...not our fault rite is the cashier slow lor...if bu shuang jus tell me straight into my face...dun look at us...nothing to see lor...

total we spent $41.05 on everything lor...but we haven buy drinks and fishball...den hor still got the bbq food haven pay...its $70 lor...i now really broke le...dunno where to find so much money also...its only NEXT week...and i left $20 now...how...?now go where find another $50...wahaha...den i tink dun wan buy drinks le...cos someone sponsor me 2 carton...den not enough to drink not my problem le...wahaha...

p.s: if anyone who read this entry and happen to be invited to my bbq...hope tat ur can sponsor somemore drinks for me...cos not enough...haha...if dun wan to sponsor nvm...jus give me money $$$...cos i not enough money to pay for everything...if not jus help me pay for the $70 can le...wahaha...

den after tat...we carry alot of things lor...walk all the way to mrt station...den take train back to pasir ris and change bus to come my house...wahaha....i dun understand why we went all the way there to get our stuff...actually we can go bedok de giant lor...its nearer...haha...maybe we are jus mad...

den after tat christine also come back with me...cos too much things le...den after tat she went home lor...now my fridge is full le...how...haha...den i also cannot find a place to put all those things...we want to let out ur fridge just to let me put my stuff...wahaha...

i am tired now...but dun feel like sleeping...wahaha...i realise tat got 2 person who call me the first thing they ask is where are you...strange rite...i nv meet meet them den they call me and ask me eh...where you huh...i at where their problem meh...wahaha...the 2 person is SHAUN and PHILIP...hey...so next time ur call me dun ask me this again...cos it doesnt concern ur...

jus now was talking on the phone with wan leng...and shaun suddenly call me...den he ask where you...den i say at home lor...den he say got conference mah...i say dun have...why leh...he say nothing...cos beari sian...jus finish work...wahaha...finish work sian my problem meh...go home sleep lah...den he continue wat you doing...den i say talking on the phone with frene lor...you faster go home lah...i call you back later...den he say me siao...everytime talk on the phone...after tat i say okie lah...later den call you...hey shaun dun say me siao lor...the purpose of you calling me is to talk with you lor...so dun say me siao when i talk on the phone...cos you are jus saying you are siao...wahaha...

nariko
10.08 pm

11 may 2006

why am i blogging today when my life seem the same everyday...haha...cos i finally saw someone tat i long to see...and i jus simply miss him alot...wahaha..life is the same now...its seem more like a routine to me...wake up...go school...come home...sleep...online...and sleep again...the cycle repeat from day to day...sian ar...

jus now wake up at 7 plus...den go online dunno until wat time...shaun suddenly call me...den talk lor...den he ask me wan meet later mah...cos wan talk face to face...haha...bo liao...he say like tat easier to talk...den i meet him at abt 10...cos he finsh work den all the way back home...den meet him at downstair...which is mine and his house de void deck...haha...cos we live on the same block...

we also beari funny lah...live on the same block den nv get the chance to meet one another cos our timing simply jus dun clash...he sleeping i go school...i reach home he working...den is like no way we can meet...he off day we also nv go out cos i studying...den everytime dun have the chance to go out together....finally we meet today...haha...before meet him weather was fine...but say wan to meet him...den rain le...haha...funny...

sit at void deck for abt an hour...jus simply sit there and talk...cos really nv see each other for a long time le...den talk quite alot of things...den next sat having bbq at east coast park...got ask him come also...most likely he will come after work...but not too sure he will stay overnight mah...cos next day he working...but hope tat he will...haha...

after tat...i say we go home lah...cos he also haven eat his dinner...den also so late le...let him go home eat dinner lor...cos we got alot of chance to meet up lor...since he also stay downstair nia...but also funny lah...we stany same block...den i nv go him house before...he also nv come to mine before...wahaha...

nothing to blog le...so i shall not type anymore le...haha...I MISS YOU SHAUN...shall meet up again and talk....haha...also something else....you should knew it...i wan to see more next time i meet you...wahaha...its our secret...haha...

nariko
11.44 pm

8 may 2006

nothing to blog today cos...as usual go school and back home again...but i did a personality test jus now...so decided to post it up for eveyone to ty it...its quite true...let me show ur my result...this is the link to it:
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx


Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve

so faster go try it...and tell me is it true...wahaha...jus tag me at my tag board to let me now...

nariko
8.32 pm

7 may 2006

nothing to do today...even though its a sunday...no one ask me out...so stay at home whole day long...den decided to come here and post some photo...cos i was browsing through my documents den i found this photo once again...so i shall post it up...

nice mah...wahaha...of cos lah...its done by me mah...for someone birthday...it took me quite some time to finish the whole thing even though its only 300 pieces...shall continue to upload other part of the photo...

this is the finish puzzel with the frame...tat bracelet is also part of the birthday present...but its share with someone de...wahaha...i jus simply love the puzzle...if someone was to give it to me...i tink i will cry bax...

nariko

4.35 pm

7 may 2006

i dunno why i am here blogging in the middle of the night...maybe tonight too much things had happen therefore i decided to come here to wrtite down all my thoughts...

wat is love actually...why it can make one person suffer so much...it can bring someone to hell...it can also bring someone to haven...is it worth it to end everything because of love...it is worth waiting for it...maybe i have the answer for it...but it still make me think...

i noe tat its no use dying because of love...cos its not worth it afterall...wat if you really end ur life...will the other party noe...will the other party appreciate it...i dun tink so...wat for you proven tat you willling to die for him...he still wont come back to you no matter wat...wat gone is gone...no use holding on to it...jus let it go...

izzit worth waiting for someone who dun wan to stay by ur side...i also think its not worth it...cos i noe wat it feel to wait for someone...i already wasted 2 1/2 yrs on someone le...its jus wasting ur own time waiting...ended up you will still be the one getting hurt...so wat for hurt urself once more...even he noe you are waiting for him but he still wont choose to come back...if he choose to leave in the first place he wont choose to return...so dun waste ur time waiting...jus carry on with ur life...and let him go...

maybe this is the most stupid thing tat i had done...torturing myself with pain...izzit worth it...i dun think so...i jus use pain to numb myself...but ended i am the one suffering but not him...so wat for...jus carry on with life...cos there are still alot of friends and ppl around you tat care for you...so gal...dun think of ending ur life le...afterall you jus need someone by ur side...jus take ur time to look for it...i am sure tat you can find it de...if not you still have us...

maybe now for the time being...you may think tat he may be the rite one...if he is the rite one...he wont choose to walk away...maybe i use to think tat i wan him to be my last one...but not now anymore...cos i use him as a replacement in the first place...till the day i realise tat i actually fallen for him...but i dun wan to wait...cos its jus wasting my time and not his...i torture myself because of him...but now thinking of it...i am jus stupid...so dun wait and dun hurt urself because of him...jus let life carry on...

maybe till now...i still dun understand the real meaning to love...its jus something complicated...its jus something tat cannot be understand...maybe this is the real meaning to it...it jus bring pain to ppl...tat's it...i also dun wish to understand...cos its jus too difficult...

p.s: gal...dun think too much le...i choose to write it here because i noe you will sure read my blog de...you are the one who use to worry abt me...but now is my turn to worry abt you...dun tink to much le...dun ever think of ending ur life because of someone...jus live life to the fullest...if dying can solve everything...i would have done it 5 yrs ago...and i may not be here anymore...so just carry on...but dun regret wat you had done...cos no use regretting it...no matter wat you will still have me beside you de...

nariko
2.08 am

3 may 2006

school start on yesterday...den nv bother to blog...cos too tired le...cannot make it cos i wake up at 5.45 am den i slept at 4 am tat morning...den reach home 6 plus...already beari tired le...den go bath le all tat...sleep at 8 plus...cos really cannot make it...

today lesson start at 10 but i reach school before 9...wahaha...first time i can reach school so early...and nv late for school...but i still late for my first lesson...cos wait for catherine lah...wait until late lor...haha...den sit in main lecture theater sit until going to sleep le...cos having lecture for 8 class...den is like super sian lor...

den after tat go cca booth to help out...den almost quarrel with the teacher...sian lor...beari piss off with her right now...dunno wat we trying to say...den is like dunno her lah...we got communication breakdown with her lah...keep thinking we trying to make her life difficult...sian...

den after tat afternoon got elective...sian ETP...i dun like lor...i wan TPD...is like we dun have the right to choose our elective lor...cos we all kanna force to choose ETP...but my first choice is still TPD...sian...those last term nv take ETP now also not in ETP...not fair de...its not tat i dun like ETP lor...but i still prefer TPD...even though ETP dun have exam...only need to finish all the project...and its easier to score cos no theory...but i still dun like i still wan TPD...

sian ar...now nothing to do...only to blog and msn...sian lor...life is bored even though school start le...cos i dun enjoy to be in my class now...its like super noisy lor...not only tat the lectured dun even give a fucking care lor...and the whole calss is almost malay lor...sian their laughter is super scary lor...and super sharp lor...like witch ar...i wan change class also...sian...

nariko
10.46 pm