7 may 2006

i dunno why i am here blogging in the middle of the night...maybe tonight too much things had happen therefore i decided to come here to wrtite down all my thoughts...

wat is love actually...why it can make one person suffer so much...it can bring someone to hell...it can also bring someone to haven...is it worth it to end everything because of love...it is worth waiting for it...maybe i have the answer for it...but it still make me think...

i noe tat its no use dying because of love...cos its not worth it afterall...wat if you really end ur life...will the other party noe...will the other party appreciate it...i dun tink so...wat for you proven tat you willling to die for him...he still wont come back to you no matter wat...wat gone is gone...no use holding on to it...jus let it go...

izzit worth waiting for someone who dun wan to stay by ur side...i also think its not worth it...cos i noe wat it feel to wait for someone...i already wasted 2 1/2 yrs on someone le...its jus wasting ur own time waiting...ended up you will still be the one getting hurt...so wat for hurt urself once more...even he noe you are waiting for him but he still wont choose to come back...if he choose to leave in the first place he wont choose to return...so dun waste ur time waiting...jus carry on with ur life...and let him go...

maybe this is the most stupid thing tat i had done...torturing myself with pain...izzit worth it...i dun think so...i jus use pain to numb myself...but ended i am the one suffering but not him...so wat for...jus carry on with life...cos there are still alot of friends and ppl around you tat care for you...so gal...dun think of ending ur life le...afterall you jus need someone by ur side...jus take ur time to look for it...i am sure tat you can find it de...if not you still have us...

maybe now for the time being...you may think tat he may be the rite one...if he is the rite one...he wont choose to walk away...maybe i use to think tat i wan him to be my last one...but not now anymore...cos i use him as a replacement in the first place...till the day i realise tat i actually fallen for him...but i dun wan to wait...cos its jus wasting my time and not his...i torture myself because of him...but now thinking of it...i am jus stupid...so dun wait and dun hurt urself because of him...jus let life carry on...

maybe till now...i still dun understand the real meaning to love...its jus something complicated...its jus something tat cannot be understand...maybe this is the real meaning to it...it jus bring pain to ppl...tat's it...i also dun wish to understand...cos its jus too difficult...

p.s: gal...dun think too much le...i choose to write it here because i noe you will sure read my blog de...you are the one who use to worry abt me...but now is my turn to worry abt you...dun tink to much le...dun ever think of ending ur life because of someone...jus live life to the fullest...if dying can solve everything...i would have done it 5 yrs ago...and i may not be here anymore...so just carry on...but dun regret wat you had done...cos no use regretting it...no matter wat you will still have me beside you de...

nariko
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