28 june 2006

not feeling well today...most prpbably lack of sleep for this few days bax...everyday slept quite late...den today finally cannot take it le...and really not feeling beari well...and also yesterday nv blog so decided to blog today...

yesterday go where leh...haha...travel ib btw seng kang and woodland...beari fun leh...all because of me and ME...haha...cos i wanted to study for today de CA...den valon volunteer to teach me...den actully go his house de...its at woodland...but before we go...we come back seng kang first...haha...den go woodland...after tat come back again...study at seng kang...wahaha...fun leh...spent the whole afternoon travelling...

den today CA...die lor...sure fail de...all dunno how to do...really wasted my time studying...and ended up i dunno how to do....haix...i had been taking panadol for the whole day le...reach school take panadol flu tablets...den after the CA...take panadol again...cos headache...most likely not enough sleep...

den after CA...go out school eat...go until where...guess???go boon keng eat prata again...cos of my stupid idea...den after tat go APSN take things from philip...and back to seng kang...and i already not feeling well le...the whole journey i feel like vomiting lor...cos the bus is really beari warm...

den reach home already 4 plus le...went bath...and sleep...sleep till 8 like tat...den wake up...eat dinner...wahaha...den sit there...stare at the teevee...cos nothing to do...den feel like vomiting all the time...dunno wat happen to me...but feeling better now le...so i tink i will go school tml...

nariko
10.14 pm

26 june 2006

bored for the whole day...nv go for ETP lesson again...cos dame tired de...yesterday night slept at 3 plus...den wake up at 6 this morning...den super tired...reach school also no mood...cos too tired want to sleep le...

during lecture...actually sleeping de...but wake up den sit there and talk...talk alot...i wan to matchmake them...but its seem tat my decision is wrong...cos ur jus simply stop me...told me tat it wont work out btw them...but i tell ur something...dun try to match make us...cos we also dun work out...maybe this is the first time tat i nv say tat i wan someone to be my frene for the first time...i also dunno why...but as i say i am satisfy with this friendship in btw us...and i am happy jus like tat...i dun wan anything else...so both of ur dun tink of match making us...if not i will bite ur...

after tat lunch...someone irritate me...and i dunno tat someone...dun give me tat xl face...i nv disturb you so you better dun come give me attitude and face...and i really dunno you...dun need to push away the chair infront of me...ur attitude really sux...make me feel moody after tat...lunch wat i eat...haha...today i eat potatoe salad...beari nice...and i got 3 scoops of ice-cream...thankx to wan leng and valon...haha...

den lesson again...jus sit there stare blankly...and day dreaming...and did nothing while the rest are doing their revision question...jus sian...after 1 hr lesson cannot make it le...and i went home...leaving wan leng in school for ETP lesson...

reach home here pain there pain...leg blister...and its pain...and eventually i walk home from compass point...wahaha...reach home...on air-con...bath...and sleep...wahaha...slept till 7 plus almost 8 den wake up...but now i still having headache since morning le...i tink i going to sleep soon le...i am jus tired...



nariko
9.35 pm

24 june 2006

sian...staying home for the whole day got nothing to do...i thought tat i can sleep till the late afternoon cos i slept quite late last night...i also dunno why i wake up so early...before noon...haix...den at home slack...

at home for the whole day do wat...let me tell ur...wahaha...jus sian...sms valon for the whole day...cos he say he can pei me de...wahaha...at least got someone to sms me...den decided to cook...so again...cook teriyaki chicken for my lunch...haha...cos i got no idea wat to cook...den after tat...really got nothing to do...i go and dye my hair...my color is light now...haix...

hey...thankx valon for giving me face...he eventually dare to try my cookies...den i promise him tat i will try to make some cookies after holidays...cos now i got no time...den my house also dun have oven...den lazy to go over my cousin house to bake...to those who tasted my cookies noe tat my cookies is dame hard...so you still dare to try...wahaha...i see if next week i free...i cook teriyaki chicken spaghetti for ur to try...wahaha...

den really spent the whole day at home doing nothing...and times fly now its already night le...i cant imagine tat my one day is gone like tat...i still haven do the banner for miss choo...i got no ideas how to do it...haix...ideas run out...den only can use 2 colours...sian leh...how to do...really no ideas...haix...

our miss wan leng saw ban ueo today...stupid lor...i wan to see him...cos he is so cute...and shuai...i should ask valon to go out with me...since he say he can pei me today...regret tat i turn down his offer...i wan to see BEN...not fair...wan leng get to see him...haix...

nariko
8.26 pm

24 june 2006

reach home abt half an hour ago...and i am not in bed yet...even though its raining...and its a super nice weather to sleep in...and after i blog i shall go sleep till noon later...wahaha...beari long nv had a nice sleep le...

as usual went to school and back home...after tat meet valon at tampines interchange to go watch soccer match with philip and the clients of APSN...super long nv see them le...i tink abt 2 mths le...cos i nv go down...den today go is for CIP...cos i need to complete 30 hrs...lucky got valon to go with me...wahaha...really enjoy...and he owe me ice cream...haha...cos i win the bet with him...

the soccer match not beari exciting...haha...ended up same as my prediction...it will be draw...haha...and really draw...2:2...haha...so tat is how i got my ice cream...wahaha...but ended up i still owe valon money...cos take cab down...den he pay...cos i dun have money with me...stupid lor...i am really broke le...wahaha...sian...no money to spent le...

after the soccer match...wanted to go CFA with them...den after tat go supper with philip de...but the bus got go pass MRT station...den i ask valon to go back first...cos its only one stop away from his house...if later he go supper with us...he sure come back home with me before he go home lor...i dun wan...cos he will reach home quite late...but lucky he nv go....cos i reach home 12 plus almost one le...if he go i tink he will reach home at 1 plus bax...

haha...went supper with philip at boon keng...den guess wat...eat prata again...actually wanted to eat Macdonald de...but alot of ppl...cos decided to eat prata lor...eat until no more train to go home...so have to take cab home...and borrow money from philip...own another person money...really going to broke le...wahaha...sian...how i wish money can drop from the sky...

reach home...guess wat is the first thing tat i do...haha...call philip...cos he say reach home le call me...den guess wat is the second thing i do...sms valon...cos he say reach home le msg me...even though i noe he sleep le...cos i noe i reach home too late le...den he ask wan leng to tell me tat he go sleep first...cos he cannot make it...haha...den after tat sit infront of the computer till now...going to wash up before i sleep...cos i also cannot make it le...

p.s: valon thankx for accompanying me to do my cip and watch the soccer match...really enjoy myself with you around...and thankx for ur ice-cream...you still owe me...haha...monday i got ice-cream to eat le...haha...

p.s.s: hey philip thankx for ur supper...really enjoy myself with you tonight...

sometimes i had been thinking...if its not urs you had to let go one day...if its urs how hard you try to let go it will still belong to you...i dunno if i really learn to let go of you...i am confused...and i am feeling complicated now...

I AM TIRED...

nariko
1.43 am

19 june 2006

hum...i now beari stress...jus piss off with life le...haix...one thing just pass and another thing pop out of no where suddenly...haix...why cant my life be free from everything...jus fed up abt everything...

to be clearer...not i feel nothing abt him...its jus tat i wan us to be wat we were last time...crapping everyday...and joking around...cos i had been avoiding him for a long time...i dun wish to talk to him neither in sms or msn...but today eventually i talk to him...cos need to ask him abt something...haix...this means tat the problem btw me and him is over le...

but another problem jus pop out from nowhere....which me myself cant even explain...being close does it means tat they are together...they are going out as a couple or are they dating...i dunno why...cos alot of misunderstanding happen...ppl had been asking if me and valon are together...jus when they saw us togehter at the bus stop...haix...

today ting hui jus ask me...how you and valon le...when i dunno where did he get the information tat me and him are couple...till i say we are not together...and why did you ask this...he say tat he saw us at the bus stop waiting for bus together...haix...i dunno...wat can this prove...can this prove tat we are together...it cant...cos wat is the purpose of building a bus stop there...its for us to wait for a bus rite...so standing there together means a couple...den i also walk home with someone...does this means tat we are staying together...

den later some ppl ask wan leng again...cos she told me...they ask her...it is true tat valon and jalaine are together...cos they say they had rumors abt us...i dunno thing will spread so fast till the next class...cos only the whole group of them in class will keep saying us...but i noe they are playing...but now seem like others are also asking abt it...i dunno why...

i admit tat we went out together without anyone else...this i can explain...cos omar last minute cannot make it...so we jus went out...cos in the first place we already wanted to go out...but tat omar wan to go along so we change the date...but ended up he nv turn up...den tat day me and him waiting for bus at the bus stop i can also explain...cos my lesson cancel...den his lesson ended early...and i thought tat he will be with the otheres...so i msg him to tell him tat all go home together...but i didnt he was alone...till i meet him...

den why are we waiting at the bus stop for bus together...when i saw 27 and i nv go up...cos the bus is beari crowded...den i dun wan to go up cos i want to sit...den why is he at the bus stop when he usually go to the interchange for bus...cos he say take 168 is faster...tats why...other than this i dunno why he stop at the stop...

haix...only all this can make so many ppl misunderstand abt us...actually i dun wan to explain all this cos i dun feel like...cos its jus my own problem...and not theirs...cos i dun need to tell anyone who i had date...or who is my current boy...cos he is not the only guy tat i went out alone...i also went out with other guy alone also... its jus tat i feel tat is really unfair for him...cos i seem to be the cause of all this...if i nv ask him for movie we wont go out le...if i nv ask him to go home toether...we wont be at the bus stop le...

actually the something special is for him...i doubt tat there will be ppl saying something again...cos it jus too me alot of effort to do it...den its really something beari special...haix...so now i am in a dilemma...should i jus continue to do it and finish it and give it to him...or should i jus give up and buy something more practical for his birthday...even though his birthday is still a long way from now...haix...i dunno...

really beari sorrie to create so much trouble to you...even though we noe clearly tat there is nothing on in btw us...i jus dun like misunderstanding...but something is even more ridiculous in btw us happen...cos someone say i am his wife...wahaha...when did i go ROM with him...i dunno...but i dun take this to heart...cos its said by my group of frenes...and i noe they are all joking de...

to anyone who noe us...and keep wanting to ask if there is something in btw us...i say it again...dun have...and if wan to ask jus ask me straight and dun ask wan leng...cos its my problem and not hers...if one day we are really together...i will declare it to every single one of ur...

p.s: valon, if happen tat you read my blog...i am really sorrie for all this thing to happen...cos i dunno why also...rumors spread fast than anything else...

this blog entry will basically be explaining all this...cos i dun wan to hear anything more in achool abt us le...

nariko
9.33 pm

18 june 2006

hum...sian ar...at home today,,,nv go out...cos no one ask me out...but one tink is tat...i sleep till almost 2 pm today...i slept abt 12 hrs...cos i sleep at 2 am...cos i am doing something...haha...and i scarifice my nails...i cut away...

let start from 16 june...cos i realise i nv blog for a number of days le..wahaha...wat i did for tat day...let me think...haha...eventually tat day i was late for school again...den i dun have time to iron my clothes...cos if i finish ironing i dun need to go school le....haha...so i wore my school polo-tee to school...which is like i nv wear for a long time le...cos i only wore it for 2 times nia...

reach school the first person i saw is christine...and she buy me sweets...haha...den she beari ben lor...think i wear home clothes to school...cos i wear polo tee with jeans...haha...den go in class wan leng say wah...today so sexy ar...haha...cos my polo tee is tight fit...tats the reason why i dun wear...

after school met up with christine...den go town...wahaha...eventually we spent all our money at popular...and so we walk around for awhile...den went back to seng kang after tat...sit there slack and talk...den went home...

yesterday also go out...go airport...haha...accompanying christine go there do revision...den wat was i doing there...go there to do wat i was suppose to finish doing before 8 aug...haha...tat is the deadline i suppose to complete something for someone birthday....its meaningful k...tats why need a longer time to complete...it not as tough as the puzzel tat i do...cos it dun require much patience...but i scarifice my nails...cos long nails beari difficult to do...

den also meet qianning....haha...she is more beautiful in real life...even though i noe she suddenly become beari beautiful le...haha...den after tat...come back seng kang again...den walk around...go buy things...den go home...reach home around 8 plus...haha...

maybe i am learning to let go of things le...cos its no use holding on something tat doesnt belong to you in the first place....tats why i choose to talk to him in msn jus now...cos i really beari long nv talk to him le...its like how long i nv see hm means how long i nv talk to him le...wat the use of holding on when he nv noe tat i still like him...tats why i jus choose to let go of everything which i had been holding on all this while...

nariko
5.03 pm

15 june 2006

yeah...reach home at 7 plus jus now...den beari tired...cos go out for the whole day...and laughing like mad all the way...wahaha..i tink one day i will die from laughing too much...wahaha...today reach school at 10 plus...cos i wake up late...haha...

den in class do nothing dunno wat the teacher was talking...nvm...so we were talking all the way den teacher keep calling us to keep quiet...quiet for a few second and after tat talk again...haha...den finish lesson...go eat...den after tat go century square...cos they wan to apply for job...

den after tat...me, valon and wan leng go yishun...cos we going to watch movie....i noe 4 days ago i jus watch movie...haha...keep watching movie this few days...we watch R.V.(runaway vacation)...and its beari nice lor...haha...the shoe is so nice...so funny also...

after the show...we were laughing again...haha...cos on the way to yishun on the bus...we were laughing like mad also...haha...the bus actually beari quiet de...but becos of our laughter...it became beari noisy...haha...den after tat saw MacDonald...den actually jus wanted to eat ice cream de...but ended up we sit there we eat our dinner instead of ice cream...haha...

den after tat...walk around North Point...doing nothing...jus walk around aimlessly...cos nothing much to shop there...cos the mall is quite small...haha...den walk till nothing to walk...den all go home...haha...den valon go interchange with us to wait for bus...haha...den he wait till we board the bus den he leave...so gentleman of him...wahaha...

den something beari coincidence happen today...guess wat...the seat no. today is 12, 13 and 14...again...12 and 13...i jus mention yesterday dun give me 12 and 13...cos i will faint...wahaha...its the second time le...but i jus choose to treat it as nothing...i dun wan to let him affect me once again...haha...i did something to the tigger tat he gave me...i hide it under the bed...cos i cannot find a whole to hide it...wahaha...

from now on...i dun wan to let him affect anymore...i wan to be myself once again...i choose to forget abt everything...and jus carry on my life...and carry on to seach from my prince....to search for the one who is meant for me...

nariko
9.09 pm

13 june 2006

i am now in a confusing state...i dunno wat happen to me...my mind is filled with him now...i dunno why...haix...i am jus starting to use laughter to hide my sadness...i dunno why...i jus dun wan to let anyone noe how i feel now...i had been trying hard to laugh...

i dunno why...i starting to keep everything away my sight which is related to him...i jus dun wan to see anything related to him...cos it jus make me miss him more...i kept away the tigger tat he gave me yesterday morning....the tigger is beside me every night when i sleep...but i jus choose to keep it away...it jus make me miss him even more when i look at it...i dunno why...

yesterday night...before i sleep...he eventually reply my msg tat i send him the night before...if he nv sms me...i wont even think of him...i will jus sleep peacefully...without him in my mind...i tink i had been crying the previous two night till i fall asleep...i really dun understand myself why i actually do this...

am i jus falling too deep for him...till i dunno wat i had been doing...i dunno wat i wan...but now...the mention of his name jus make me feel like crying...he had given me wonderful memories before...which i tink i wont forget...i will remember it for the life time...

jus now...showing wan leng and christine my secondary school diary...the whole book is fill with the memories of shaun...and after tat i realise tat my whole blog actually fill with the memories tat he had given me...thinkin of tml...tml will be the 14 june...which is the fifth mth tat i noe him...i mention in my blog before...i wont bother abt this date anymore...how i wish tat i forget abt tml date...and pretend nothing happen...

i dun wan to continue le...cos i jus feel like crying when i type all tat...tml will be another day...i will try to reach school early from now on...cos i had been to school early for the past two days le...maybe in school...i may be laughing all the way...but deep inside of me...i am not...cos i dun wan to let anyone see the other side of me...

i miss him...

nariko
6.45 pm

12 june 2006

within less than 3 hrs...this is my another post...i dunno wat happen to me...i really feel like crying out of the sudden...i dunno why...is it because of him...maybe...i dunno why...

tml having CA...but now i haven sleep...still sitting infront of the computer...thinking and thinking...tml CA sure die...cos i dun even noe a single thing now....maybe going out jus now its a great mistake...i should jus stay at home and study...

after going out...my whole mind is filled with him now...i dunno why...maybe jus now been to too may places tat i had been with him...things tat we do...things tat we saw...things tat we say...our conversation...everything jus came back...

i had been trying hard not to talk to him...not to forget abt him...but jus to avoid him...cos i dun wan to have any more things with him...but i dunno why...its jus dun seem to be the day for me...cos when i was out of my house...i had been already wet le...and reaching there...things had been too coincidence le...the places tat i dun even go i get to go jus now...

jus feel like crying...i dunno why...maybe jus now i8 shouldnt have sms him at all...now he nv reply...i dunno why...maybe we are really jus 2 completely different person in 2 different world...our world really dun clash...i really hate myself for loving him...

life jus sux...
i really hate myself now...

nariko
1.08 am

11 june 2006

erm...reach home abt an hour ago...but nv blog instantly cos on the phone jus now...den until now den come blogging...today i go out...for movie...with valon...and once again...he pay for my movie ticket...thankx valon for ur movie...enjoy myself with you...

go out at 2 plus...cos meeting valon at plaza singapura at 3...by then when i go out...it was raining beari heavily...and i was wet from the top to the bottem...even though got shelter...but the road is flooded...den i also got bring umbrella...but no use...i am still wet...all thankx to omar...suggested to go for movie today...den ended up he nv come....if not we will go for our movie on friday le...

reach there only 3 plus...get our movie ticket still early...cos no ppl queuing up...den nvm we go walk walk lor...walk the whole building...den nothing to buy...cos i also dun have extra money to buy things...so jus see...cannot buy...den i saw the colourful bear...someone say to me before the bear look like bread...cos of the colour...today no matter where i go...i keep thinking of him...alot of thing remind me of him...i shall talk abt it later...

den after tat i go buy the pink tortoise...for christine...cos tat time i say i wan to buy for her mah...den go buy lor...at there saw tigger...with the wrist band...actually i wanted to buy...but the band is orange...i dun wan....i wan the pink de...haha...i noe i beari troublesome...den after tat still got nothing for us to do...we went all the way to the last floor...to buy nachos...haha...den went into the theater...

the movie quite nice...haha...den after the movie we came back to seng kang...actually wanted to eat yoshinoya de...but quite alot of ppl...so we went to kfc...den after tat...we went walk walk...cos nothing to do also...den after we go take bus home...tats how we spent our day today...let me now tell why i suddenly think of someone today...

first...when i met valon...he is a mr nice guy...tat someone also mr nice guy...den after tat when buying movie tickets he pay...when i wan to pay him back he dun wan to take...this also reminds me of tat someone cos the same situation happens before...den i saw the colourful bear...it reminds me of someone also...cos he is the one who say it looks like bread...den in the cinema...it make me think of him again...because of the seat number...the first time i watch movie with tat someone the seat no is 12 and 13...this time also...

back to compass point...the first time tat we went out for our lunch...we also go to compass point de yoshinoya...this make me reminds abt tat someone...den after tat...went walking around compass point...it makes me think of him again...cos tat time we also got nothing to do...and was also walking around there...

luckily valon nv walk me home today...if not i will also think of him...cos tat time he say i cannot walk you home...cos i dunno this place well...later i will get lost...but valon say...nvm later got something call cab...can take cab home...wahaha...no i saw valon i will think of him...cos their character is almost the same...

haix...i dun wan to blog le...cos i dun wan to think abt him anymore...cos today really alot of things keep reminding me abt him...

nariko
10.03pm

9 june 2006

yeah...back blogging again...the sencond post of the day...wahaha...actually got nothing to blog...jus tat i got nothing to do...so decided to come here and write abt wat i did today...wahaha...

today...actually wanted to go watch movie with valon and omar de...cos the gals dun wan to go cos need to accompany boyfriend...haha...tat something good to be single...cos got alot of free time to go out...but tat stupid omar say dun wan...cos wan to change it to sunday...cos he got plans for today le...nvm so we decided to go on sunday...but need to wait for the guys to tell me the timing all tat...

after tat they finish class le...we go eat our lunch...cos wan leng need to stay in school for community service club de meeting...den all sit there beari cold cos raining mah...haha...but i still eat ice cream...yummy...den after tat the rest go home...leaving me and wan leng in school...actually we wanted to go lecture theater de...but walk past the function hall...they got a blood donation drive going on...actually i noe le...but jus nv walk pass...

den walk pass...i told wan leng eh...donate blood need i/c mah...cos i dun have it with me...den she go ask lor...den thankx to her...i actually go fill up the form for blood donation...haha...den the form so much thing to fill...wahaha...take me a long time to do it...den later another nursing student approach me...ask me interested in being a volunteer for the bone marrow doner programme anot...and again...i agreed...to those who are reading this...go to the link below...and read abt it...and volunteer urself for it...cos you might save another life...


http://www.bmdp.org/


den after all the filling up of form den need to register...take blood pressure and do blood test...den after all tat...need to wait for my turn to donate blood...luckily wan leng was there to accompany me...cos need to wait quite long...den its my turn...wahaha...i ask wan leng to go back first...cos she need to go meet her boy...the whole thing took abt 10 mins...and its not pain at all...haha...i did something great today...cos by donating ur blood you will help save life also...there's another link to it...go read it...


http://www.hsa.gov.sg/html/consumer/ctm_how_to_be_a_donor.html


faster go check out the web site...and be a blood doner...Be SomeOne Special. Be a Blood Donor. wahaha...i seem to help them promoting...den after the donation...they jus bandage for you...and you can leave...wahaha...

nariko
9.56 pm

9 june 2006

hum...nv been blogging for the past few days le...cos too tired to do it...everyday come back home from school will be 10.30 le...den bath all tat...11 le...online awhile tired le...den go sleep...co nv blog...

lets start from monday...got presentation on tat day...really beari nervous lor...cos the powerpoint slide was finish on tat beari day...den also dunno wat the fucking hell i was saying on tat day...cos i really beari nervous...haha...but luckily this time i not bullet train...cos i speak quite slow...wahaha...first time leh...

on monnday to thursday...had been staying in school till 9.30 pm..cos got realwork...wahaha...the job is quite easy...jus pass the namelist and classroom number on the doors...and pass number on the table...cos ppl coming to take exams...den if ppl ask where is the classroom jus show them can le...after tat can rest le...haha...everyday sit there talk...eat ice cream and slack...haha...after they finish exam...jus take down all the papers...lock the rooms and help to count the exam paper...see its so easy...and we can easily earn $15 one day...and we work only 3 hrs...wahaha...but everyday reach home beari tired le...

why am i not in bed now...when i come back home feeling tired and all...cos tml lesson start at 10 am..so dun need to wake up so early...haha...so can come here and blog before i go to sleep...i dunno why i had been feeling so strange towards him...the mention of his name jus make me feel irritated...actually is not irritated i also dunno how to say...but i will jus pretend tat i nv heard...or jus dun respond to the mention of his name...i really dunno why...

maybe this is just the way tat i am using it jus to make myself not to think abt him...am i escaping from it...i dunno...but this few days whenever i dreamt abt him...we will be quarreling in my dreams...i dunno why...when i wake up i will try means and ways not to think of him...haix...i dunno why i am feeling this way...i feel so complicated...

tired le...going to sleep soon le...cos tml still got lesson...and i also dun wan to continue...if not i will think of him once again...i dun wan cos...it will make my tears fell again...



nariko
12.40 am

4 june 2006
why am i blogging here again...when i had nothing to blog abt...cos my life seem the same everyday...i am jus bored...cos ,y computer dun have powerpoint...den i need tho do etp project...den cannot do here...need to do at the other comp...so i shall blog le den go do my project...

jus now go out...to eat dinner...another family gathering...cos my grandma's birthday...den sit there eat...crapping...and playing with all my little cousins...they are so cute....but one of my little cousin sit beside me...den bo bian...need to feed her...wahaha...its something difficult k...cos she dun listen to me...she keep playing with me...wahaha...at first i dun wan to have kids even though i love kids alot...but after all this i am sure i dun wan to have kids le...cos really need to have alot of patient and time for them...which is i dun have...

my little cousin are so cute...haha...i kanna kiss alot of time by one of them...i also dunno why...she keep kissing me...wahaha...den one of them wan go home le keep saying bye bye to me...wahaha...so cute...especially she say jie jie bye bye...he voice so cute...and sweet...really love them so much...wahaha...but they still cannot change my thinking of not having a kid...haha...

den after tat come back home...den sit infront of the computer until now...later doing powerpoint...but something make me wan to blog...i wan to type out how i noe him and all the memories tat he had given me...i also dunno why i want to do tat...i still can remember clearly on when and where we meet...and wat we talk abt...wahaha...my memory power leh...he really give me alot of wonderful memories...but now i no longer hoping for the 14 to come le...from now on every 14 to me...will seem like any normal days le...

14 this day to me is beari meaningful de...cos i get to noe someone* who is so nice...and everything...14 jan 2006...met him not for the first time...cos i met him during a camp from 16 to 18 dec 2005...but nv talk...dunno each other...till tat beari day we met once again...cos of a gathering...den i wan him to send me the photo tat he took...but we dun have each other contact...and i should be the one getting his contact no...so tat i can send him my email...but i was stupid enough...i gave him my contact no instead...i noe i am blur...haha...

from tat beari day after we exchange contact and email...we talk online...but nv meet up...i also dunno why...till the day which is 25 feb...we meet again...but this time is in our school...cos of some sports meet stuff with the clients from APSN...den i happily go volunteer myself for tat day...and i nv predict tat he will come...cos i lost the bet with someone else...after tat day...i get to noe more things abt him...and he treated me lunch...wahaha...last time i had high expectation on guy becos i really dun wish to find tat someone who had all the expectation...cos i jus simply dun wan to forget someone...but eventually i met him...and he had every single things i wan on a guy...even the most difficult one...a chef...he has it...

after tat...i was beari surprise tat he had all my expectation...but i nv fee a single thing for him...haha...i dunno why...den i met him again on the 5 march...cos he ask me for volunteer...den i cannot find...so i volunteer myself...with 2 other ppl...on tat beari day nothing much happen...cos nothing for me to do...but i dunno why after tat...i feel weird...i keep telling myself tat i wont like him...till i dunno on when i actually fallen for him...in the first place he is jus a replacement for me to forget someone,,,but eventually i like him...

nvm...dun need to care abt tat...in between i got ask him out...but everytime fail...cos he is so busy...if want to ask him out...must book in advance de...cos i fail everytime de...den on the 31 march...met him again...at APSN...cos we were there discussing something...den after tat he got event...den i went out...cos i got something on...dun have the chance to follow him...2 apr...we met up again...cos we were going for a soccer match...but before the match he eventually ask me out for a movie...this is our beari first movie...ICE AGE 2...its nice...and after the movie and the soccer match...we went to eat ice cream...i ask him out for ice cream before...but it fails...haha...

14 apr...the beari special day...i noe him for 3 mths le...actually nv meet up de...cos we meeting on the 15 apr...but still we meet up le...cos i was going down to boon keng with a group of frenes for supper...den ask him wan join us mah...eventually he agreed...haha...den we meet on the 15 apr cos i was having an event at APSN...so he meet to go open the doors all tat rite...cos he is the programme coordinator there...after the event he come my house to take birthday present...cos his birthday is on the 29 apr...but he not free...den after tat he went home and we meet agin in the evening for dinner with the other couple...his birthday present spent me 2 weeks...and i really scarifice alot...including my results...but overall its still worth it...cos he appreciate it...

17 apr...we meet again...for movie...cos he owe me the movie...actually 15 apr wanted to watch de...but something happens...and i dun wan to watch...den also 17 he nv work...so decided to watch tat day...BLACK NIGHT...its not nice de...this is also the first time tat i walk to boon keng station...cos i nv walk before...and we eventually walk pass little india...and its also the first time tat i went there...

18 apr...something tat i will nv regret doing it...i tell him tat i like him...and eventually he nv saw it when i type in msn...and there is some misunderstanding btw us...until the 19 apr...everything was clarified...cos he msg me when i was sleeping and i was annoyed...and so i say ask him abt it...and everything was clarified after tat...den on 22 apr...meet up again...cos of some volunteering work at the bird park...but nothing much happen...cos we were doing our own things there...i nv meet him again until my birthday which is 17 may...

this is the day which i get beari piss off with him...cos i eventually waited him for abt one and a half hour...this is also the first time tat someone make me wait...but in the end he really surprise me...go read my previous entry and ur will noe wat happen le...meet up again on 20 may...cos i had a bbq for my birthday...and he come...he surprise me once again...with wat he bought for me...overall i really enjoy...

this is all the meomories tat he had given me...i will keep it with me for the rest of my life...even though our world dun clash...cos we got our own things to do...and even though we seldom meet and all...i dunno wat i wan to say le...but from today...every 14 will the same for me from now on...but i will not forget you de...cos you was the first guy who make me feel tat i am a gal...i also dunno why...

*tat someone most of my frene will noe...i guess he will also noe all this and how i feel after he read all this...but i doubt he will read my blog de...cos he read it when i tell him to read it...i dunno why he make me feel so special...another 10 more days will be 14 le...and it will be the 5 mth tat i noe him le...but this is not important anymore le...cos i dun wan to bother le...

i dun wan to cont'd typing all the things in btw me and him le...cos i dun wan to make myself thinktoo much again...actually all this are beari brief...wan to noe more...jus come and ask me...maybe i will tell you...haha...

**off to do my project le...

nariko
11.58pm

4 june 2006

here blogging again...cos my internet can use le…cos i go restore my computer den can use le lor…haha...i shall update wat happen the past 2 days...actually i am busy now de...but still decided to come here and blog...cos if i continue to think and do...my head will burst...

someone ask me to draw a pic of a shoe...when my drawing sux can...i dunno how to draw...if dun believe can ask those who saw my drawing before...draw words and letters can...but not picture...i really dunno how to do it...but using computer to create something i know...i am trying to use the comp to draw the shoe out...trying hard now....i dun wan to think abt the pic le...i shall continue to blog on other things...

2 june 2006...out the whole day...meet christine tat day...den go back seng kang...go compass point...wanted to go there do revision de...ended we go there eat yoshinoya...den leh...want to go library de cafe to study...ended up go there drink coffee and hot chocolate...den she do her homework...den i go there find books to read...

after awhile...she also stop doing le...again...we find things to eat...wahaha...i eat brownies...den she eat tuna sandwich...haha...we eating again...everytime i meet her sure will eat and eat...i also dunno why...den before tat they gave us a tag...its beari special you noe why...cos got the no 17 on it...its my fav no...cos its a common no share btw someone and me...wahaha...

den sit there...eat, talk craps, read book and day dream...haha...den abt 5 plus we left...den we saw tigger again...haha...actually before we go library we already saw it le...den somemore take alot of pics...haha...you shall see it below...den walk around compass...den awhile later we go take bus go home...

3 june 2006...yoday meet up with christine again...meet up to study at plaza de...cos i dun wan to go anywhere else...but in the afternoon...i was home...guess wat i did at home...i was cooking...haha...really beari long nv step into the kitchen and cook le...ended up i cook i eat myself...cos my sis was out...sian...

meet christine at abt 7 plus...den sit there do abit of revision...den she say dun wan to do le...say wan go out...den i suddenly say...we go boon keng eat prata leh...den she beari happily agree with me...haha...regret now le bax...haha...

den nvm...before we left plaza...i drink a medium size coke...and i was beari full...cos beari bloated...den nvm...walk back home...den go put books and change...den go take bus to interchange...den go there she go buy things again...den after tat go take train go boon keng...

reach there abt 9.35...i forget the time le...its abt there...den after tat order everything le...beari fast our order came...but before we eat...we feel beari full...i also dunno why...den nvm...struggling with our prata...laughing while eating...den see someone strange...haha...by the time we finish our prata...its abt 10.30 le...power rite...haha...take so long to eat...cos too full le...

we finish le...feel like vomiting everything out...haha...den before tat...when i was eating i keep telling christine...banana beari nice...den i dun find it funny...but i dunno why she keep laughing when i was saying this...den after tat go take train home...reach home abt 11...beari stupid of us...go until boon keng eat...haha...as if seng kang and hougang dun have prata...haha...later i will upload the photo tat we take...

later need to think of ways to do the picture le...i really dunno how...haha...cos my drawing really sux...haha...

nariko
1.08 am

2 june 2006

now in school blogging cos my internet connection at home got some problem...den cannot surf web...cannot go online...also cannot update blog...sian..must wait till next tue...den the technician den come my house to check...

jus reach school not long ago...cos morning too tired...den cannot wake up...den nv go for lesson...den now in school but i nv go for lesson...cos i jus wan to come school take books...and send wan leng the project...den at the same time waiting for christine to finish school...cos later going out...most likely go for revision bax...cos next wee CA le...die...dun even noe wat i had study for this mth...sian...

yesterday also go out...with wan leng...cos we finish lesson at12...den nothing to do also...den i also wan buy shoe...den she wan to buy couple tee-shirt for her boy and her...but before tat we went to cafe 1 to eat...sit there talk craps and laughing all the way...with valon, hui qi, alisa and wan leng...den after tat we go bugis den they all go home bax...

we went bugis village to hunt for our things...ended up...nothing to buy there...den also raining beari heavily...den we went bugis junction after tat...walk around...den i also got nothing from there...but wan leng bought her tee-shirt...den went going down the escalator...i saw someone...and its marcus...is he saw me first de...cos he call me...den i saw him...

den after tat went take train..go far east plaza...go there find shoe again...but ended walk all over the place but still cannot find a suitable pair...cos all beari nice...but school cannot wear...f not school can wear de all not nice...haha...den also nv buy...den after tat wnt to dunno wat show...saw necklace...den wan leng wan to buy...but ts 3 for $10...den she also dun wan to buy so many...so we get one each...den get another braclet for alisa...

den after tat...i say wan to go heeren...cos nothing to do at far east plaza also...den go there also walk around...also looking for shoe...den ended up...cannot find a pair of suitable one...nvm...walk until beari tired le...legs breaking le...so sit there deciding wan to go take neoprint anot...ended we also go take...the neoprint beari nice...i am mad le...cos beari long nv take neoprint le...and this is the first time i taka alone with wan leng...cos everytime is one whole big group...its so fun...

den after tat walk to somerset staion...actually wanted to go find yvonne de...but she nv work yesterday...so nv get the chance to see her...den we go take train back to seng keng...den go compass point walk walk...legs really breaking...this is the first time tat i walk until so tired...cos i tink i wear heels for the whole day...den still walk so much...go compass point also nothing to do...den go library...look for books...den i now got alot of books to read at home le...

den after tat walk around go buy lip gloss...den went to BATA also...saw a pair of shoe...quite nice...also look cute...i wan to buy le...cos not enough money so i nv buy...nvm...wait for next week...i sure wan to go and buy...den after tat we saw tigger and friends...cos they got photo taking session with the shoppers...but the first 100 shoppers who dunno spent how much den can have the chance...so i wan standing there and see...tigger is so cute...den i also saw a kid wearing tigger costume...its so cute lor....mini size tigger...

after tat wan leng go home with me...cos she going her boy's house den her boy haven reach home...so she go back with me...den sit there awile...talk craps...den after tat accompany her go wait for bus...den i go home after tat lor...

den at night talking on the phone...with wan leng and omar...talk alot of craps also...but i still like the part on horror stories...but wan leng scare so we stop it...den talk till 12 plus bax...den all put down the phone and i go to sleep...cos really beari tired...

shall post up the neoprint some other days...cos i haven scan yet...christine still haven finish lesson...sian...den i need to stuck here till 1 plus....sian ar...i wan my internet connection at home...cos i really rotting at home le...den cannot go online somemore..its my daily routine lor...now cannot den really nothing to do le...haix...

nariko
12.52 pm