19 june 2006

hum...i now beari stress...jus piss off with life le...haix...one thing just pass and another thing pop out of no where suddenly...haix...why cant my life be free from everything...jus fed up abt everything...

to be clearer...not i feel nothing abt him...its jus tat i wan us to be wat we were last time...crapping everyday...and joking around...cos i had been avoiding him for a long time...i dun wish to talk to him neither in sms or msn...but today eventually i talk to him...cos need to ask him abt something...haix...this means tat the problem btw me and him is over le...

but another problem jus pop out from nowhere....which me myself cant even explain...being close does it means tat they are together...they are going out as a couple or are they dating...i dunno why...cos alot of misunderstanding happen...ppl had been asking if me and valon are together...jus when they saw us togehter at the bus stop...haix...

today ting hui jus ask me...how you and valon le...when i dunno where did he get the information tat me and him are couple...till i say we are not together...and why did you ask this...he say tat he saw us at the bus stop waiting for bus together...haix...i dunno...wat can this prove...can this prove tat we are together...it cant...cos wat is the purpose of building a bus stop there...its for us to wait for a bus rite...so standing there together means a couple...den i also walk home with someone...does this means tat we are staying together...

den later some ppl ask wan leng again...cos she told me...they ask her...it is true tat valon and jalaine are together...cos they say they had rumors abt us...i dunno thing will spread so fast till the next class...cos only the whole group of them in class will keep saying us...but i noe they are playing...but now seem like others are also asking abt it...i dunno why...

i admit tat we went out together without anyone else...this i can explain...cos omar last minute cannot make it...so we jus went out...cos in the first place we already wanted to go out...but tat omar wan to go along so we change the date...but ended up he nv turn up...den tat day me and him waiting for bus at the bus stop i can also explain...cos my lesson cancel...den his lesson ended early...and i thought tat he will be with the otheres...so i msg him to tell him tat all go home together...but i didnt he was alone...till i meet him...

den why are we waiting at the bus stop for bus together...when i saw 27 and i nv go up...cos the bus is beari crowded...den i dun wan to go up cos i want to sit...den why is he at the bus stop when he usually go to the interchange for bus...cos he say take 168 is faster...tats why...other than this i dunno why he stop at the stop...

haix...only all this can make so many ppl misunderstand abt us...actually i dun wan to explain all this cos i dun feel like...cos its jus my own problem...and not theirs...cos i dun need to tell anyone who i had date...or who is my current boy...cos he is not the only guy tat i went out alone...i also went out with other guy alone also... its jus tat i feel tat is really unfair for him...cos i seem to be the cause of all this...if i nv ask him for movie we wont go out le...if i nv ask him to go home toether...we wont be at the bus stop le...

actually the something special is for him...i doubt tat there will be ppl saying something again...cos it jus too me alot of effort to do it...den its really something beari special...haix...so now i am in a dilemma...should i jus continue to do it and finish it and give it to him...or should i jus give up and buy something more practical for his birthday...even though his birthday is still a long way from now...haix...i dunno...

really beari sorrie to create so much trouble to you...even though we noe clearly tat there is nothing on in btw us...i jus dun like misunderstanding...but something is even more ridiculous in btw us happen...cos someone say i am his wife...wahaha...when did i go ROM with him...i dunno...but i dun take this to heart...cos its said by my group of frenes...and i noe they are all joking de...

to anyone who noe us...and keep wanting to ask if there is something in btw us...i say it again...dun have...and if wan to ask jus ask me straight and dun ask wan leng...cos its my problem and not hers...if one day we are really together...i will declare it to every single one of ur...

p.s: valon, if happen tat you read my blog...i am really sorrie for all this thing to happen...cos i dunno why also...rumors spread fast than anything else...

this blog entry will basically be explaining all this...cos i dun wan to hear anything more in achool abt us le...

nariko
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