4 june 2006
why am i blogging here again...when i had nothing to blog abt...cos my life seem the same everyday...i am jus bored...cos ,y computer dun have powerpoint...den i need tho do etp project...den cannot do here...need to do at the other comp...so i shall blog le den go do my project...

jus now go out...to eat dinner...another family gathering...cos my grandma's birthday...den sit there eat...crapping...and playing with all my little cousins...they are so cute....but one of my little cousin sit beside me...den bo bian...need to feed her...wahaha...its something difficult k...cos she dun listen to me...she keep playing with me...wahaha...at first i dun wan to have kids even though i love kids alot...but after all this i am sure i dun wan to have kids le...cos really need to have alot of patient and time for them...which is i dun have...

my little cousin are so cute...haha...i kanna kiss alot of time by one of them...i also dunno why...she keep kissing me...wahaha...den one of them wan go home le keep saying bye bye to me...wahaha...so cute...especially she say jie jie bye bye...he voice so cute...and sweet...really love them so much...wahaha...but they still cannot change my thinking of not having a kid...haha...

den after tat come back home...den sit infront of the computer until now...later doing powerpoint...but something make me wan to blog...i wan to type out how i noe him and all the memories tat he had given me...i also dunno why i want to do tat...i still can remember clearly on when and where we meet...and wat we talk abt...wahaha...my memory power leh...he really give me alot of wonderful memories...but now i no longer hoping for the 14 to come le...from now on every 14 to me...will seem like any normal days le...

14 this day to me is beari meaningful de...cos i get to noe someone* who is so nice...and everything...14 jan 2006...met him not for the first time...cos i met him during a camp from 16 to 18 dec 2005...but nv talk...dunno each other...till tat beari day we met once again...cos of a gathering...den i wan him to send me the photo tat he took...but we dun have each other contact...and i should be the one getting his contact no...so tat i can send him my email...but i was stupid enough...i gave him my contact no instead...i noe i am blur...haha...

from tat beari day after we exchange contact and email...we talk online...but nv meet up...i also dunno why...till the day which is 25 feb...we meet again...but this time is in our school...cos of some sports meet stuff with the clients from APSN...den i happily go volunteer myself for tat day...and i nv predict tat he will come...cos i lost the bet with someone else...after tat day...i get to noe more things abt him...and he treated me lunch...wahaha...last time i had high expectation on guy becos i really dun wish to find tat someone who had all the expectation...cos i jus simply dun wan to forget someone...but eventually i met him...and he had every single things i wan on a guy...even the most difficult one...a chef...he has it...

after tat...i was beari surprise tat he had all my expectation...but i nv fee a single thing for him...haha...i dunno why...den i met him again on the 5 march...cos he ask me for volunteer...den i cannot find...so i volunteer myself...with 2 other ppl...on tat beari day nothing much happen...cos nothing for me to do...but i dunno why after tat...i feel weird...i keep telling myself tat i wont like him...till i dunno on when i actually fallen for him...in the first place he is jus a replacement for me to forget someone,,,but eventually i like him...

nvm...dun need to care abt tat...in between i got ask him out...but everytime fail...cos he is so busy...if want to ask him out...must book in advance de...cos i fail everytime de...den on the 31 march...met him again...at APSN...cos we were there discussing something...den after tat he got event...den i went out...cos i got something on...dun have the chance to follow him...2 apr...we met up again...cos we were going for a soccer match...but before the match he eventually ask me out for a movie...this is our beari first movie...ICE AGE 2...its nice...and after the movie and the soccer match...we went to eat ice cream...i ask him out for ice cream before...but it fails...haha...

14 apr...the beari special day...i noe him for 3 mths le...actually nv meet up de...cos we meeting on the 15 apr...but still we meet up le...cos i was going down to boon keng with a group of frenes for supper...den ask him wan join us mah...eventually he agreed...haha...den we meet on the 15 apr cos i was having an event at APSN...so he meet to go open the doors all tat rite...cos he is the programme coordinator there...after the event he come my house to take birthday present...cos his birthday is on the 29 apr...but he not free...den after tat he went home and we meet agin in the evening for dinner with the other couple...his birthday present spent me 2 weeks...and i really scarifice alot...including my results...but overall its still worth it...cos he appreciate it...

17 apr...we meet again...for movie...cos he owe me the movie...actually 15 apr wanted to watch de...but something happens...and i dun wan to watch...den also 17 he nv work...so decided to watch tat day...BLACK NIGHT...its not nice de...this is also the first time tat i walk to boon keng station...cos i nv walk before...and we eventually walk pass little india...and its also the first time tat i went there...

18 apr...something tat i will nv regret doing it...i tell him tat i like him...and eventually he nv saw it when i type in msn...and there is some misunderstanding btw us...until the 19 apr...everything was clarified...cos he msg me when i was sleeping and i was annoyed...and so i say ask him abt it...and everything was clarified after tat...den on 22 apr...meet up again...cos of some volunteering work at the bird park...but nothing much happen...cos we were doing our own things there...i nv meet him again until my birthday which is 17 may...

this is the day which i get beari piss off with him...cos i eventually waited him for abt one and a half hour...this is also the first time tat someone make me wait...but in the end he really surprise me...go read my previous entry and ur will noe wat happen le...meet up again on 20 may...cos i had a bbq for my birthday...and he come...he surprise me once again...with wat he bought for me...overall i really enjoy...

this is all the meomories tat he had given me...i will keep it with me for the rest of my life...even though our world dun clash...cos we got our own things to do...and even though we seldom meet and all...i dunno wat i wan to say le...but from today...every 14 will the same for me from now on...but i will not forget you de...cos you was the first guy who make me feel tat i am a gal...i also dunno why...

*tat someone most of my frene will noe...i guess he will also noe all this and how i feel after he read all this...but i doubt he will read my blog de...cos he read it when i tell him to read it...i dunno why he make me feel so special...another 10 more days will be 14 le...and it will be the 5 mth tat i noe him le...but this is not important anymore le...cos i dun wan to bother le...

i dun wan to cont'd typing all the things in btw me and him le...cos i dun wan to make myself thinktoo much again...actually all this are beari brief...wan to noe more...jus come and ask me...maybe i will tell you...haha...

**off to do my project le...

nariko
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