24 may 2006

hum...here blogging again...nv blog for a few days le...nothing to blog...cos everyday go school and come home...jus sian...den go school laugh for the whole lesson...and nothing else...

today jus tell wan leng something...tell her dun try to believe someone...cos he may seem simple...but he also seem complicated at the same time...cos we also dunno tat person for a long time...and we dunno wat will he be thinking...maybe i was wrong to say tat...cos he dun seem complicated...i am the complicated one...gal try to forget wat i say...i dunno wat i am trying to say...haix...

in life...we may meet different type of ppl...but i can say tat...i nv met the wrong person before...maybe i am jus lucky bax...those ppl i met are kind souls...i had met with different type of person...but they are all nice ppl...they help me in life...i really appreciate everyone of them...i shouldnt be suspicious of anyone of them...

i shouldnt be thinking tat my frene are complicated...maybe all this while i am the complicated one...ur may seem to understand me alot...i may seem happy infront of all of ur...but deep inside of me am i really happy...i dunno...i may seem happy-go-lucky...is tat the real me...i am starting to suspect is this the real me or not...so i shouldnt think tat the ppl around me are complicated...and they have something on mind...all this while i am the complicated one...cos i dun even noe my true self...

haix...i dunno way i am saying all this...maybe i dun understand myself now...i dunno wat i wan...i jus dun like wat i am doing now...be it in school...be it in life...am i jus going the wrong path...i seem to geth further away from my dreams...is this wat i wan to do...i dunno...my dreams are getting further...i cant even see it now...jus dun feel like continue to do wat i am doing now...

in school...is tat the course i wan to study...will it bring me to somewhere...i noe it sure will bring me to somewhere...but am i happy...its seem to lead me into another path...which i really cant reach my dreams...maybe i should jus blame myself...cos i am the one who choose this path...i nv regretted it...cos its a choice by me...and not others...but i jus simply cant see wat lies in my future...i hate life...it jus simply dun go the way i wanted...life jus sux...

but there is something in my life i am happy abt...i have a great bunch of frenes...i really nv regretted knowing anyone of ur...we may not often meet...but i noe tat ur will be there for me no matter wat...cos once Shaun told me...dun anyhow trust ppl...but you sure can trust us this group of frenes...of cos i will trust ur...cos i already noe ur for a long time le...at times we may quarrel...but always remember tat we also shared wonderful moments together...i really appreciate all my frenes...and i nv regretted knowing all of ur...

haix...i dunno wat i am typing all this...maybe because of wat i say today...and i really regretted...cos i think of it jus now...i feel tat i shouldnt have said tat...cos i am jus being unfair to tat person...dun wan to continue le...

nariko
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