6 march 2006

yesterday night too tired to blog le...so decided to come here before i go to school...me, chang and christine went down to APSN yesterday wanting to do voluntary work de...ended up go there slack...cos too many volunteers and not enough beneficiaries...

den stay there since 9 am and play computer cos they dun wan to go for the amazing rzce...den slack...play badminton...basketball...and jus slack around...doing nothing...play computer also nothing to play...cos everyday also play at home...den left at 2 cos nothing much for us to do there...

go meet alex after tat...den go to pasir ris beach go there slack do nothing also...but enjoy cos feel relax...we took at lot of photos yesterday...i tink is abt 102 if i am not wrong...first time in my life tat i took so many photos in one day...

den started to think abt something in this morning...i am really a complete different person now compare to the past...i have way change to much...those ppl who noe me now may be shock if they noe wat type of person i am in the past...i wan to be wat i use to be...so tat i can be more happy...i wan to return to the past...where i can play whole day...without thinkin abt my future...without thinking wat other feel abt me...without thinkin of other...and jus dun care...but now...why should i wan to settle down..why should i be so ambitious...why should i start planning my future...and now de me...i feel so empty and unhappy...

i jus wan to go back to the past...which i look like a ah lian tat time...all the word out of my mouth cannot be hear de...but i am happier tat time...but after i change...i feel so empty le...i wan to be a nurse...am i really happy if i become a nurse one day?i dunno...maybe not...

i am just feeling empty and unhappy...

nariko
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